I’ve been bad, I’ve been very bad. I’ve completely fallen off the Paleo wagon. And, the worst part is that I’m suffering for it.
I’ve gained back a few pounds which makes me mad but that’s the least of my worries. My skin problems have come back and in full force which on a daily basis makes me miserable. Who knew that eating grains and dairy could cause such a problem?
Honestly, I think I fell off the wagon because I wanted to live the same life that everyone around me is. I struggle daily with the jealousy that someone else can eat a sandwich or a piece of pizza or a cheeseburger and not have any problems. But, if I do it my body revolts in the strangest ways possible.
I keep saying how life isn’t fair and why me. Deep down I know all that it’s doing is bringing me down even more. A lot of people who have to eat a restricted diet like me say, “but look at all the healthy nutritious food you get to eat.” And, then I want to punch them in the face because I want to eat tacos for every meal.
Yes, I’m that frustrated.
Ultimately I know that eating this diet will help me, it did before. It’s just really tough when there are so many things around tempting me. It’s hard to socialize at a restaurant or at someone’s house when you’re limited to what you can eat. It’s hard to plan a menu for the week for dinners much less breakfasts and lunches. And, don’t even get me started on the temptations at the grocery store. But, I have to grow a backbone and stand up for myself and my health. I know I’ll thank myself later.
I heard this quote a while back while listening to a Balanced Bites podcast and it hit home, it practically smacked me upside the head. But, it’s what I needed to hear because food is what’s hurting me.
“Tell yourself this is for now. This is while I heal and while I figure out what’s wrong with me. Every person has to hit their rock bottom of deciding when you’re at that point where you’re ready to give up the thing that’s probably hurting you. And that’s that.” – Diane Sanfilippo
Now, I just need to take these words to heart and get back on track, no matter how hard it is because I want to feel better! And, if anyone out there has any suggestions to make life easier or is willing to give me a pep talk please do!